aaah the stupid things I do.
1:26 AM
C'est le 24eme de jun (okay, I forgot what june is in French.) Et c'est le birthday (I don't know this either.) d'homme (did I even mix this correct? should it be du homme?) j'aime. Oui oui, c'est le footballeur de japon, Nakamura Shunsuke. (I wonder what he'll say if he googles his name and sees this awful entry? Well, I doubt footballers do that. I think they have a much more interesting life than to google their names.) Alors, je voudrais ....what the heck is "say" in french? Arrrrgh. Fine!O-tanjoubi omedetou gozaimasu, Nakamura-san. Itsumo shiawase ni arimasu you ni (Learnt that from Fujita-san! Hahaha!), soshite tsugi no World Cup de ganbatte kudasai! I hope that on your 32nd birthday, you'll get a much better birthday present. Meanwhile, all the best as you play football in Celtics, and I hope the Celtics will win as long as you're there.
Hahahahahahaa. I don't know why. I've suddenly developed a huge love for him. He's so adorable when he smiles, and I love watching him play, because he's just soooo interesting when he gets the ball. The way he handles it is unique. And he's not very aggressive, which is difficile to find in footballeurs, and it's endearing how he's so atypically not agressive.
As I've said, in mourning I swore off MSN and eljay. Well, meaning I didn't go online, nor did I blog on eljay, but I did stop by my journal. AC is probably wondering who the heck I've just dedicated a love message to.
For the rest of the World Cup, I've also plastered the Japanese team (but it's not all the regs. Oh well, at least Nakamura-san's there.) on my desktop. After which I shall replace it with a wallpaper of Nakamura-san, which will stay till, um, indefinitely.
I'm also planning to buy a map of Japan and plaster it on my bedroom wall. I figure I'm going to need to know the geography better because well, it's my major after all. I've already forgotten which one's the Ryukyu, Kyushu and whatever. I only remember Honshu's the main island.
It'll replace the D's List poster I have. Instead of that, I'm going to paste my newly-acquired (soon) Dean's List Cert, which will induce me to work hard to stay on the Dean's List.
But oh man, the hard work. I worked - well not my ass off, but pretty hard for my standards last semester. I figure I can put in even more work, seeing as I'm not going to be partaking in any activities by PBM or MS, but only silat, which should just be a stress-reliever. I won't be hanging out with the gang, meaning lesser time spent gambolling around Orchard, probably, or else, solitary trips which will end faster. I guess it's a good thing both of my best friends are hitched, I'm less likely to hang out with them and would hang out with myself rather as they smooch around - ok, maybe not - with their respective darlings. Of course, there's my best friend's wedding to plan, but I think that'll be ok.
I know, I mean, no WORLD CUP updates? But I haven't been watching matches lately (Dad's snoozing and I don't think he'd hardly appreciate me sneaking in to have a watchie) so I have nothing to say, no review no whatever.
I was thinking today about me and dreaming. I have so many dreams, but I guess there's a very clear line between the dreams that I'm dead set on achieving - my life goals - and the dreams that I'm dreaming just for fun, as a distraction, as a way to ease a little the loneliness. I mean, I'm human after all. I may be a bit weird seeing as I don't seek people's company, but rather, I seek the company of things, and myself. But I still need something to occupy my mind when I'm lonely, and those would be the fantasy dreams I dream, like meeting my dream guy.
But I know that if he's there, I have no idea who the heck is he. Right now, I"m just having fun imagining it to be someone that I'm madly in love with (as if it isn't obvious who he is) just for the heck of it. I know better than to sit around and dwell about who I might end up with in the future, because God may have other things planned for me that I don't know (of course He does, really.) . Instead of depressing and time-wasting things like that, I'd rather also dream and plan for my life later, going to Europe, UIA, Egypt and all that. None of my plans include a guy or marriage.
Because I'm totally leaving it up to Him. I don't really particularly care, but I have to live independently too, without hanging it all on some particular guy whom I don't even know who it might be. So if he' s not going to make himself known in the next 10, 20, 30 whatever years, it won't matter much because I've got those years planned. If I have a husband, the husband that I want, then Alhamdulillah. If I don't, then it's alright, I'll find my way to Him myself - which I would do anyway, even with a husband.
Yeah. Been pondering.
okay, tired of blogging.