an almost Hermionesque fervence.
8:50 PM
I don't even know if there's such a word as Fervence. But who cares?I'm utterly divided as to whether I want school to begin or not. I love studying French and Japanese, and I'm certainly looking forward to that. I'm also looking forward to Japanese philosophy and I think maybe, if Hidayah is, I will take MS1101E and then I'll have a friend, which is teh good. One more breadth, which Mar and I hope to take together.
Then I'll only be geng-less for French (used to it.) and Jap philosophy (might as well get used to it.)
But on the other hand, I hate waking up early. Gah! I've thoroughly enjoyed the ability to crack open one eye and clamp it shut again, or roll around. yes. I have a wonderful hobby don't I? Very enriching too, I might add. I'm going to miss that.
Not to mention that when school starts, things are going to be extremely hectic. Already I end at 8 on Monday. I very likely may have to end at 8 other days too. And even if I don't I have mountainloads of work to do. And there's still teaching tuition. I have a record of 3 at the moment. It's horrible - 5 times a week. Sigh. Just thinking about it makes me weary.
Plus, the World Cup is going to end. Sigh.
Anyway, it's really annoying how people suddenly want to watch the World Cup even though they've not watched football in their lives beforehand. I think I understand AC on this. Not I think, I do. But that's the only thing - I do not understand the Man. U. devotion. Oh well, not as if people can understand my Liverpool devotion. It's really blind loyalty I tell ya.
But I think next season I'll try to be a better fan. I've been out of it for many years now, ever since I was in Uni (and that's a year.) so I think I should rekindle my devotion.
I think it's time better spent rather then sitting in front of the computer really. Some people may say there's not much difference but I say there is. Football is healthier for the mind, I swear. Sitting online is a huge waste of time especially considering that I don't really have a desire to talk to anybody.
And this'll be the first semester I'm going to spend as a lone ranger. I mean I always have, with the exception of last semester, but the thing is before that I was always one so it didn't matter, now I know that I am purposely running away from my friends it's another thing altogether. But I prefer it. Being with people are annoying. Especially with many people. I'm tired of having to open my mouth and talk and be friendly. I am not friendly by nature, so stuff it. I'm just friendly around people because it's a conditioned reflex. I've always been friendly but it doesn't mean I enjoy it. I'd rather just be with myself or maybe a good friend or two, like Maryam and Na'im, but that's about it. And I can't wait for Na'im to be in NUS, we can coordinate timetables and hang out together. it's like we're Hermione, Ron and Harry (okay, I've definitely gone off the end, but don't blame me - I've been reading HP for the past few weeks). I was thinking Maryam has to be Hermione because she's the smartest, but I'm the bossiest and the naggiest. So I should be Hermione. Plus Maryam and Na'im were best blokes before I came in so that makes sense. So who's the tragic hero - Mar or Na'im? Na'im's got a bit of an oversensitive side. On the other hand now that I'm thinking about it Ron and Hermione have something going on, which is so not true of either of us. I think Na'im should be Harry, because he's like the main character and me and Maryam are always trying to fade away. So Mar should be Ron. She's got a sarcastic sense of humour - no wait, in that case - nah, harry should be Na'im. he always had that tragic hero thing going on.