just needed to get something clear.
6:17 AM
wouldn't be able to concentrate on the netherlands - serbia game otherwise.my mom apparently feels that I must tell her that I am going to teach AJ tmr. Well, yeah, I did want to tell her. But thing is I've sort of developed a ....couldn't be bothered kind of attitude. I mean, it's not that I'm so arrogant as to just walk out of the house without telling her anything. But it's like, why, what for? What difference does it make? Why should I waste my breath telling people things? It's not as if it makes me feel better. I'm not saying that I'm in the right, in fact I'm in the wrong for not telling her. But I would have. At least before I walked out of the house. I wouldn't have just upped and left. As for telling way in advance, I really would love to be a good daughter and screw up my courage to tell her where I was going all the time. But for these reasons I chicken out.
1) I'm afraid she'll nag at me because it isn't a useful activity.
2) She'll forget anyways.
3) I can't be bothered.
I am a bad daughter, I know that. But I just can't screw up my courage to tell her all these things that I plan to do because I don't even know how. So sorry ma. I'm just a huge chicken. Thassit, nothing else.