blasting Sutaafisshu in my ear.
8:41 PM
25 minutes to Teh Return. If what bunga says is right. Aku takut penat2 aku dled 68-69 skali Rukia balik 70....if that happens, bunga's dead.Bunga's attached!!! To his cousin, no less. Not his cousin. The Ex's cousin. it's kinda..ironic. The Ex used to be cold to Bunga because i was so friendly to him, and padahal he likes his cousin. Kinda...funny....
But yeah, I'm pretty glad for that. Like they say, it's a lot easier being friends being guys who are attached, and I daresay this is why I feel so comfortable around Chong (plus a hundred other girls) and now, Mukmin and bunga can join the list!
No, as maryam would ask me, I am not disappointed. I already said, my feelings for bunga are entirely platonic and I knew that way way way before I knew he even liked someone. I actually thought he liked Nura silat. But it doesn't really matter. I had figured out that I could never ever consider Bunga seriously. I would consider him as seriously as I would, say...Naz. yeah. I mean, not looking down on Naz or anything, but we're on totally different wavelengths. Totally.
That's left me with Md noor as a close guy friend yet to get attached. But at least I know he's hankering over someone else. But I think it might get a bit uncomfortable between us. Because well, he used to be comfortable with me because I used to be kinda off limits even if I wasn't officially attached. Now it's not so easy to talk to each other closely...yeah...we yesterday were talking about the sweet things that we wanted to do with our spouses, and it occurred to me that surface-speaking, what we're looking for is a bit like each other....because we both are so affectionate. It occurred to me as a random thought, as in heck, we should just marry each other. But nah, it's just a passing thought, and we're also on different wavelengths. Not as far as me and bunga, but definitely not husband material for me.
Me....I know there's someone there I'm quietly falling for.
Vow to self - I accidentally told Chong. But I trust that Chong thinks I was just joking. I'm gonna keep this under wraps, because I want to see whether it's possible for me to keep a secret. Yeah. I won't tell a single soul, except this journal of course, about him. yeah.